I feel whiny, and I shouldn't, because as tired as I am, I know that Dear Husband and dear in-laws are much, much more tired than I am as they finish up the house and get on the road to Corpus Christi today. But as I told DH today, when they get here tomorrow, we will put the beds and the couch in the house. Everything else can go in the garage and get dealt with later. I am going to take Youngest Brother and Buttermilk (his wife) to the beach, either tomorrow afternoon or Sunday, depending on when they get here. And unpacking can go as it needs to. YB and Buttermilk leave Monday morning and Father-in-Law leaves Tuesday morning. I'm off Monday, and we can take things at a leisurely pace.
At the moment, I'm sitting in my office. We don't really have classes on Friday, and I think I might be the only one holding office hours on Friday morning, to be honest, but it's a good time to come in and work. I've done a little bit of grading this morning and gotten my paper gradebook set up, as I keep both a paper and digital copy. (Backup. Always have a backup.) It's been raining this morning for the first time since I got here, rain that's badly needed.
Part of being tired, I think, has been the sudden adjustment to teaching five classes. Part of that, I'm sure, has been because I've had the last year as a dissertation fellow, and I've not been teaching, but before that, the most I'd ever had in one semester was three classes, so I begin to understand why during the interview process, there was always concern in the voices of the committee when they asked how many classes I'd ever taught at one time. I'd been confused before, but I'm starting to understand why it's a legitimate concern, and I'm definitely starting to appreciate all of the full-time temporary faculty at MTSU who also teach 5/5 course loads a little more. I only have 3 course preps, but it is going to be a lot of grading. (I've managed to space it out so the only time all five classes will have something due at the same time is going to be at midterms and finals. I have no idea how I've managed that. Pure dumb luck, I think.)
A friend of mine posted an article on working 40 hours a week in academia, and I'm trying to keep that in mind. As much grading and planning as I can do in my office, I will. I want my home time to be home time and to separate work and home as much as possible. I know that's not always going to be possible, particularly around midterms and finals, but I think it's a delineation that needs to be made and it's important. (And for those who like to snip at academics and say "Well, you only work nine months out of the year." One, that's not entirely true, and two, I only get paid for working those nine months. If I teach during the summer, I get paid for working in the summer.) At the same time, I tell my students that I will try to have all of their assignments back within a week of receiving them. This is my first semester teaching five classes. We'll find out if that's feasible, but Del Mar uses a program called Canvas for online learning, rather than Blackboard or Desire2Learn (and oh my gosh, guys, this program is amazing. All the capabilities we wished Blackboard or D2L had? Canvas has.). Canvas has a feature called SpeedGrader, so I've been able to upload my rubric online to the assignment sheets. I haven't tried it out yet, but I will in a couple of weeks when my 1301 class (Composition I) turns in their resumes and cover letters. Canvas even keeps track of your attendance, lets you calculate how much of an absence a tardy is worth, etc.!
I think another part of being tired has been that I'm homesick. Not for Tennessee, but for Kentucky. I was never really homesick when I moved to Tennessee, but I think that's because it wasn't far to get home, and I was always able to just pop home for the weekend. That's really no longer an option, and Christmas will be the next time we get home. Mom got some reasonably disturbing news from the doctor this week, and I can't go home and look at her face, as my Gran would say. But I think when DH gets here, that will get better too.
And I am enjoying Corpus Christi quite a bit. There are always little discoveries to be made, I think, when you move someplace. I live near the Naval Air Station, so on my way to work in the morning, I've been seeing fighter jets flying back and forth, low over the city. It's no wonder people used to think that they were UFOs. There's something oddly eerie about the way they fly in such a perfectly straight line across the sky. I also saw a plane with a radar on it that I think may have come from the National Weather Service station, since it was very low over the city and seemed to come from the direction of the airport, rather than the naval station. On my way home, I've been seeing people kite-sailing in the laguna, which is an entirely new concept to me, and really neat to watch. I went out to the beach this weekend and watched ghost crabs dig their holes in the sand, which entertained me most of the morning.
By this time next week, DH should be here. I will have my things about me. The semester should be in full swing, and ML, the member of the janitorial staff assigned to our building, will hopefully not have to greet me every morning with "Today is ------, Miss Emily," because I've forgotten what day it is again! And Bergie, I really hope, will actually stop hiding most of the time. And by then, I'm sure I'll have some more new insights on being a full-time faculty member for the first time. Until then.